Busy Days

So, Finn got back last night. Yay! heehee

I went over for dinner and a movie. I made dinner, he provided the movie. Dinner? Mexican rice and fresh kielbasa. Movie? Boondock Saints. Which was awesome, by the way.

I missed him. More than I thought I would.

So, tonight, I finish sewing my new cloak. Don't worry, pictures will be forthcoming on Flickr. And, I have to hem my skirt a little bit...don't want it dragging in the mud.

Lots of work!

Just a question: why does my heart skip a beat when I catch him looking over at me?

It's Going to be OK

Yeah.

I think it is.

I went out for a few hours just by myself last night. I parked down by the river, watched as the river raced past. Watched the lights of the town dance on its surface. With music playing and notebook in hand, I wrote. I wrote down what was in my head and my heart. I haven't done that in a while.

And you know what? It felt good. Awesome even.

By the time I found my way home, I was in much higher spirits. I'm still scared as hell, but I'm more comfortable with what happened and what was said. And I realized that it's OK to be scared.

Life is a roller coaster.

And I get to ride it with a new love and awesome friends. ;P

How Do You Know...

How do you know if what you feel is truly real? How do you know what is real?

I know I'm real. I know my kids are real. I know that kind of stuff. I'm talking about your feelings. How do you know that they're real?

They say that some people think with their heart and some with their heads. Um, hello? The heart is a muscle; it has no receptors in order to think and feel. Your brain is the one that thinks. It just depends on which side, left or right, that is doing the thinking.

I mean, seriously. How do you know if you're in love with someone? Does it make your heart race? Do your palms sweat? Does your tummy do flip flops? Possibly.

What does it mean when you don't feel that anymore? If you haven't felt that in a long time?

What does that mean?

Actually, I'm a little scared of the answer....